Still not a new entry...

Although I have written a dozen no show entries... They all seem like the same thing every time I get started and here is another one... Are these entries the only thing keeping me alive?  I wonder.. And yet they aren't being posted...   I keep thinking why can't I dig my way out of this hole??    

Face book is farce book if you ask me...  If ever someone was designed to NOT be on facebook it is me... I'm an introvert.. Big time introvert.. The few friends I have are mostly family.. With a few friends of my older brother that must feel like they have to friend me .... I hate facebook...  But when I feel good I generally feel alright.. But ever since the first of this year my back has bothered me...   I have been unemployed for the better part of the new century...

I will admit I have been depressed recently... Actually when I think of it I have been depressed a LOT..  But upon this year coming around and for no other reason than the fact that I see no reason to continue on...  This past November my mom had said yet another one of her favorite well when I die things.. And it was either late October or November she had said that and it made me think but what if I die first??? I mean there was an issue at one point where I either had a dream or a sudden thought crossed my mind that I might die first and then January happened and it was kinda a foretelling of something like that could happen... Back when I was in high school I had this thinking.  How long do you think you will live, what age??  I thought at the time  55... Fifty five sounds reasonable.. I think at the time my dad had an issue with his health and I thought he was fifty five at the time.. And things go down hill from there and they really did..  but then November happened and I thought how can I leave my legacy such as it is for people to see??  And so I got some SD cards and put some of my videos together.. I wanted my family to see some of the videos.. Although after last night looking at the videos on YouTube I realized NOBODY WATCHES THEM... The video project was a huge waist of time.. I feel so stupid most of the time but in this case I really felt stupid... I have no money so I can't buy a gift.. I have no money so I don't want anyone to buy me a gift.. Christmas sucks... Facebook sucks... And now YouTube SUCKS...

I struggle to see a reason to move forward.. If it weren't for the fact I'm afraid of death I would likely have died more than ten years ago...

So why can't I really get a job?? Why did I hate the job I had and why can't I get a job now??  Well I'm an introvert which isn't enough of a reason to remain unemployed for so long... I live within my mind.. I try to explain it to myself first.. But I live within my mind.. And when I don't I see how I really am and I find myself depressed and find myself seeing on facebook my older brothers friends with their lives and families and all I can think it why am I still alive.. I have nothing to offer anyone... Back in January I had a nurse filling out paper work asked me do I ever think of suicide..  And my truthful answer was to say yes, but who hasn't.. I had already answered a question truthfully (do you drink hard liqueur, and I answered yes, by very mindful if they ask you that question that even if you are drunk on your ass at the hospital the answer is no, I never touch the stuff...)  Suicide, what me???  NEVER...  but in reality have you seen my life?? What life I have?? Lack therein of said same???    The question I really have is why am I still alive???

I watched that show thirteen reasons about a high school girl who ends her life...  Really why kill yourself at that age, you are young, the sun will come out again tomorrow... Why I would off myself??  Hey I'm a few months from my target date, why not off myself...  To me it isn't suicide if I'm the age I am, it's more of an option to say ENOUGH IS ENOUGH...

Earlier today I was at a funeral, mom wanted to go and I said yes if she couldn't find anyone else to take her.. I'm not a fan of funerals or weddings for the same reason...


Well todays entry gets the rare opportunity..   this one gets to be seen by nobody although it is live... See you later...

When it gets real..

The local town a year ago... a year ago at the local town they started building houses at a local neighborhood that I called Cabelaville as a lark.. Mostly it was a joke on the local company that I called it Cabelaville because without the main company there would be no economy to support any such housing.. Back when they started to build or talk about building this part of the town we kept saying well when is going to be built.. Well they seemed to be dragging their feet.. Then the bottom dropped out and the company had a good little bit of their stocks bought by an investment company, they forced action to make their company stocks move which then happened this past October, a "merger" with another company.. I knew that this merger would likely destroy one or both of the companies which one is taking it in the shorts  now with the other trying to fulfill the merger but are seeing the other company failing and will likely either let it and buy the scraps that are left or will not bother figuring why buy any of it... Well watching the town gradually fall apart and knowing two years ago that this is what was going to happen..  I was taking my mom to physical therapy and out by the hospital is where the cabelaville is located and they started building two houses.. Now what this was supposedly going to do for the town was as some people were saying it was going to stop people from worrying and the town was going to be alright.. Well it was false hope, I knew it and a lot of other people did as well.. And if they thought there was hope it was quickly dashed a week ago when a restructuring was ordered by the company meaning mass layoffs..  The company is in major trouble.. Too much debt...  Today on Facebook another home is placed up for sale... https://www.zillow.com/homedetails/1180-Alvarado-Ct-Sidney-NE-69162/119396310_zpid/?view=public   It really hits you when you see this house added to the other hundred or so that have been placed up for sale and knowing that a lot of these won't be sold anytime soon...   A few weeks back my mom had said why doesn't my brother go hose hunting shortly.. Well it would be a great idea to find a house for cheap except for one thing.. The housing market hasn't collapsed completely yet... When that happens you will get this six bedroom house for a fraction of what it is going for now..   or this house: https://www.zillow.com/homes/for_sale/113889956_zpid/41.153224,-102.975691,41.148878,-102.983019_rect/16_zm/


Seriously when you see these houses, the one just above being placed as an estate sale that they are likely trying to see if anyone shows interest, likely they aren't really trying to sell it, whereas the house above that the people are having to sell because they lost their jobs and are likely going to have to move away to get a better paying job very soon... Very sad situation there... They may not be able to sell it anytime soon or for what they want for it...

Badge Henry

Another get to know you entry..

Another get to know you entry from my brothers facebook...  I don't like using it on FB because it gives too much away...


Facebook is supposed to be social so let's learn about each other. 😉 I LOOK TO BE A BIT BORING!!!! 
✍ Tattoos.... His answer not yet, mine likely never, here's why, when I was a little boy I got one of those rub on tats and it was cool looking but a few hours later I wanted it off and mom said sure just wash it off, soap and water???  What???  I'm desperate but not that desperate... 
😷 Surgeries...3. Double hernia, release a compressed nerve in elbow. Gallbladder. I've had one, tonsils... 
🏥 Broken bones......6.. Me I've had one, my arm.. 
🔫 Shot a gun...... Yes  Me yes as well... 
😕 Quit a job........No.. Me yes, several... Take this job and shove it..
✈️Flown on a plane........Yes.. Me yes, my uncle Fred's little plane he used to fly to school back in the day..
🚙💨100+miles in a car..........Yes.. Me yes, thanks Randy T.
Gone zip lining...No... Me no as well.. Would love to do it though..
👶Watched someone give birth.. yes.. Me no..
😯Watched someone dying....yes..Me yes.. My Dad...
🍁Been to Canada.... No...been over it though. Me no..
🚑Ridden in an ambulance...Yes..Me no..
🗼Been to Europe...... Yes.. Me no..
🗺Stamps in passport Yes... Me what's a passport..
🏦 Been to Washington D.C... No..Me no
🌞 Visited Florida........No..Me no...
🗻 Visited Colorado...Yes..Me yes..
🎉Visited Mexico......No..Me no..
🎲 Visited Las Vegas...Yes.. Me yes, Before I was of age when Vegas meant what it does at age.. wink wink..
🎤 Sang karaoke.......No.. Me no..
🐶 Had a pet(s).....Yes.. Me I've had a pet Oreo.. The cookie, I also ate it.. Does that make me a bad person???
🎿 Been downhill skiing.....Yes.. Sort of..
🎷 Ability to read music ... Yes..Me yes
🚵 Rode a motorcycle.... Yes..Me Yes..
🏇 Rode a horse... yes.Me no..
🏥Stayed in a hospital......yes..Me yes..
💉 Donated blood....yes... Not so much...
🚗Driven a stick shift....... Yes..Me yes
🚓Ride in Police Car....Yes...but not in the back. me yes..
😇Grandkids.......Yes..me no
🚤Driven a Boat .....Yes..Me yes..
🐌Eaten Escargot .....Yes..Me..snails.. NO...
👽Seen a UFO......No me, seen a UFO...Yes..  Been in one, not yet but still trying..
🚢Been on a Cruise.....No..Me no..
⛽️Run out of Gas...yesme Yes..
🍣Eat Sushi.... Yes.. Eaten raw fish no, eaten close to raw cow... YES... Was barely warmed but that was then..
👻Seen a Ghost..... No.. Me yes, many times.. Why does it seem like every time I see a ghost it is a relative?  


Badge Henry 

The saga of running aground

Everybody gets headaches right?  I got headaches, and recently, I mean the past four or five years I would get headaches, more in the winter than any other time.. I didn't worry about them.. But when I would get a really bad one it was like what the hell..  But.. They would go away.. The 22nd of December 2016 was a special day.. My brother and his wife would sign into law that they would officially adopt their daughters twins...  This was the day we had been waiting for.. I video taped that and it was fantastic.. Got the video, got it converted and edited, edited then converted.. You know what I mean.. Got the videos set and one went to YouTube and the other slightly longer one went to the holding card... then.. Well done.. Went to bed that night head was starting to hurt, not excessive but hurting.. Watched whatever I was watching and dosed off, nothing new there.. I was hot.. and then I was well awake and thought I better get the timer set to shut off the tv.. The damn remote wouldn't work.. Shit... Well Let me see, try new batteries.. Got some in there and it still wouldn't work right.. Well just what the hell..  Little did I know the wheels had fallen off..  The wheels had fallen off??  Well here is what was in the process of happening.. I was in the process of forgetting every fucking thing I knew... EVERYTHING...  I was hot, that night it was extremely cold, but I was sweating.. It was cold.. I took all the blankets off, down to the one blanket.. Awe, comfortable.. Fell asleep for just a minute or two and then woke up freezing.. Oh great I'm losing my mind... But then I covered up and was comfortable enough to sleep, woke in the morning of the 23rd to barely know where I was.. I knew who I was, but could barely talk.. Got down stairs to eat breakfast but wasn't sure of anything..  I wasn't hungry but forced myself to eat a little..  Then I went into the front room, sat in the chair, after a while I went back to the kitchen.. Mom said do you want to go to the hospital..  Wow little did I know.. But the answer to that was always no.. So I started to drink glasses of water and fairly quickly I started feeling a lot better.. Was I dehydrated??  That drastically dehydrated.. I didn't know you could be..  But as  I was thinking about it years before I was planning to go to a concert with my brothers and I was suffering some odd symptom.. I decided not to go because of the way I felt.. I disappointed them but I just didn't feel right.. Was this that symptom???

From the 23rd of December I started to feel better. Was I dehydrated??  I kept the drinking water up.. Strange but good enough..  Little did I know...  From Christmas to new years day there would be no symptom return, nothing that showed..   Then the night of the third came.. I hadn't had a headache in a while but sure enough my head started to hurt again.. Not horribly bad but I was a little afraid it would get worse.. That night I had the hot bed action again.. Awe shit great.. (by the way everything had returned to normal mentally wise except for one thing, I still had troubles remembering words.. This from a guy who loves Scrabble).. So my head was hurting again, so .. big hairy deal.. The next day the 4th was another day.. everything was normal, ate breakfast, did everything normal and then about ten thirty or there about I had what looked like a migraine headache coming on.. Awe just great.. These things are like an acid trip without the acid or the trip but more like absolutely no fun.. But this was different.. My right eye was getting this fun shit that is like a migraine fun thing, but it looked a little different.. The glow look to it was a little different.. Awe just what the hell is this now???  This fun just keeps going.. I went to bed to give this a break, laid down and relaxed.. Mom had no idea what might be going on, and really neither did I..

My eye might be fucked up.. But to think what it might be... I shuddered but not enough to get right on it, besides the weather was turning to shit.. I hated the idea of going down and then being stranded and going blind or whatever.. So I did the next best thing.. I stayed home and became stranded and risked going blind.. The eye having a retinal tear or hemorrage was not a good thing, blind is the direction I would likely go.. I was afraid but I am the type of person that waits rather than gets on the issue.. That evening I tried to keep my eye closed.. And even as I thought I wasn't losing my vision I had a few ideas go through my mind that night..

The Saga of the January 5 6 7...  Woke up on the 5th and ate and as I was sitting there and taking stock in the eye situation noticed that the eye still had vision and a dark area where it was the day before, dark but not losing vision I didn't believe.. Migraines for me don't have hang ons, hold over effects, in fact some times I don't have headaches with the migraines, sometimes..  This dark area looked like a building or house or a tent, depending on your grandiose range.. I said house, could have been a tent...  Anyway the fun was to begin at morning, I came down for breakfast and as I was getting the small talk from mom and she said so how did you sleep last night??  Well funny you might ask me this, yesterday I thought I was getting a migraine but it felt a little different from a migraine and told her I thought I might need to see a eye doctor..  So shortly there after We started looking in the phone book and Thursdays are not good days to need eye doctors, compound this with the fact that it had snowed fairly good and I'm looking at a shitty situation..  So I call my older brother and lay out the situation and he tells me to try a guy and I do. No answer.. In hindsight the two I thought about contacting would have been a waste of time. One was a small independent eye doc, the other was at walmart and while going to WM for glasses is not a bad thing, or maybe it is I have no idea, this was likely not a good idea.. I ended up calling and getting into another local eye doctor.. At noon.. pushing the luck.. I wasn't sure about driving what with that in my eye, and I was trying to keep it shut so that might have been an accident waiting to happen.. My brother came and ran me down there.. The road wasn't horrible but with my eye juggling I was glad he took me..  Got to the place and was just a few minutes late.. The eye person put eye drops in to get them dialated.. That's just never fun... I always feel more blind than not after getting that shit in my eyes.. Went into the office and the eye doctor's second was asking me questions I have no answers to that, might very well just be asking me why the chicken crossed the road..  She puts these little blood pressure wrist band things on, they are small but.. They pump up and I watch them go up.. and up.. and up...  and....   Err... Err  what's err... Well she changes to the other arm, the first one is apparently defective, so the other pumps up and up... Gets to err..  err again.. Well lets give it another try.. The third try was the answer.. 86 over 64...  I get full praise and all this time she is praising me I am telling her and later him that I didn't think my pressure was that low.. Da, it's right.. Why doubt it..  Well after the tests were run and the true eye doctor looked at the results he said a blood vessel must have ruptured.. So he wasn't sure what might have caused it but.. He called a doctor, my moms because  I hadn't been to a doctor to be seen since.. quite a while..  My moms doc said he would look at me at 2:45 that afternoon.. So go get a bite and then check at the doctors office..  Well this should be fun.. I kept saying it's my blood pressure.. My older brother said it's probably diabetis.. I hoped not, I watched my dad die from that..  And it wasn't pretty..  So we get to the doctors office.. Funny little thing I might point out here, I have a checking account that has just shy of two thousand dollars in it... I'm just stating this fact for what was about to happen in the next four hours and actually the next fifty some odd hours..  I get to the doctors office and then the fun begins..

I get into the office and they have me check my weight and its 205 which I swore was way lighter than I thought, I hadn't weighed myself in quite some time but with my eating habit I swore I was well over the 225 pound area, maybe even 250... Why??  Just have no idea.. So then my height is about six feet.. Depending if I'm standing right upright..   Then the big tell... Blood Pressure.. This little gal put it on and pumped it up.. These things are not designed for blood pressure of people on Saturn, The first two went off the scale.. So we'll let this other girl (nurse) do the damages, she put my cup on and pumped by hand.. Up and up.. and up..  and up....  and up....    Is there an end??  I'm not sure the top number but it was over 200...  The doctor came in and he was freaking..


The decision was to put me in the emergency room right there right then...   So with that I walked down there, they got me started with iv drips plural..  By five that evening I had a force drip to get the pressure down to earth persons pressure..  I was hot that night, they put a fan in there.. That night would suck..  Why would it suck you might ask.. These hospital beds were not built for comfort.. Adding the fact that the bp test would fill and unfill every five or fewer  seconds and the comfort was not very high.. The Irony wasn't lost on me that night as I had a fan on during what would be the coldest night of the year.. But the thing was that while it kept the temperature regulated it also helped with the white noise.. I have tinitis so bad that I have to have some secondary sound and usually it is a radio station but those nights it was the fan.. I watched the tv, sure and it was really interesting, watching the Denver station tell how cold it was going to be and it was going to be cold.  I worried about mom, was she alright, had she fallen... So all this coupled with my back being in massive pain and even the inability to pee kept me worried about things.. High blood Pressure.  Yeah and there may be no fix..  The clock would move to three in the morning, the BP testing would be less as they got it under some control and.. My back kept hurting.. Shit.. Then I thought wait a minute.. I sleep in a shitty bed all the time, why can't I manage this bit of fun... I wasn't sure how much I could move but I thought well give this a try.. I moved out of dead center and found my back stop hurting.. While that stopped hurting I knew sleep would still not happen.. But it did, for about half an hour maybe.. Then Friday was here..

Earlier that night a nurse needed to get a shot, she wanted it in the left arm and I told her (don't ask me why I thought this was a good idea) that I had dislocated my arm a while back.. This was 2001, not that day.. So out goes that nurse and in comes a brain trust with questions and all I could think was shit.. if I had known this was going to erupt into the spanish inquisition I wouldn't have said squat.. Why did I say that?? My left arm is deformed.. It has what looks like my elbow on the inside not the outside.. I didn't want this nurse to prick my arm there.. Don't ask me why I thought she might nail me there.. But as the other nurses are asking me why I never had it operated on to fix it I simply uttered the words I have said many times before as honest and straightforward as I always have.. I don't trust doctors.. Why haven't I gone to see the doctor before now to check up??  I don't trust a doctor...


Friday would be a day of disappointment.. The morning they told me I had to eat something.. I had something, toast at first (They gave me a choice between regular toast and peanut butter toast) the something had sausage in it.. It was fine but... they gave me something for the blood pressure and I had to eat before that..  Then I ate as much of everything I could stomach hoping that the pill wouldn't hurt my stomach.. I seemed fine.. Then I sat up and burped.. This would be a tell burp.. A popcorn burp.. Why is bad for me to have a popcorn burp??  Well for one I hadn't had popcorn in a day.. or two .. or since I was in high school, yeah it goes back to then that this tell has been part of my life.. Why not eat popcorn anyway?? Because that is a tell for when I'm going to puke or shit or both sometimes at the same time...  So I ring the nurse and tell her I might be going to be sick later..  She talked to me about it and I told her I couldn't remember the name of the stuff I took.. I called mom to ask about what it was called but during the conversation the BP test cup started to inflate and the more I'm using the muscles the more it takes to fill.. I had to let my arm go limp and couldn't change hands because my right arm had intraveinous set there in the crease.. So I let it go... Shortly my arm was able to hold the phone again.. Told mom what it was I thought where it was and she found it..  BEAN-O ...  I told the nurse and the lab got right on that.. Three hours later.. I knew I would have trouble but I ate the super.. Friday night would be weird in more ways than anything.. Earlier Friday the doctor decided to make it the whole of Friday and maybe could get me out by Saturday.. MAYBE.. My stomach had an issue that morning (Friday morning) .. After all was said and done and I told him about being sick to my stomach he said he thought it might have been caused from trying not to take a crap.. Truth is I thought I had it timed to where I would get out Friday afternoon and when it didn't happen I thought yep, no crapping equals no fun...

Friday night.. This is when they were getting things set.. Getting the pressure set and I wouldn't need to have the cup filled hardly at all..   This is also when I was getting so tired I would start to hallucinate...  I had been this tired before but the dreams would turn ....

Friday is Gold Rush night.. I watched this show that night as well.. Not that this would change me but.. I dosed off... It was strange but I dozed while that show was on.. I woke up.. Or thought I had woke up.. There was my older brother.. And his daughter.. Kidding around.. like they always did.. I broke up.. Was it all a bad dream??? She was alive!!!      And then just a few minutes later I was awakened to find it was still Jack and the idiot Hauffman boys...

Later I would fill the thunder mug three times... Hope that didn't effect the test...





***  How do I really know I was having troubles with my memory on the 23rd of December??  Not getting the remote to work was a tell but one other thing beyond having troubles reading.. Music... Something I have been able to understand from almost before I could talk, I understand music... When I could understand music when I was so young and then when I really learned to play music made me be able to understand music and just ... But after that Friday I lost the ability to understand music.. Every song was new to me and worse off I didn't get it.. If anyone gets music then understand that suddenly it leaves you..  I have no way to explain it other than my ability to read words... Not being able to understand words, not getting the directions for getting the remote control to work...  How to program it...   *****


###Back in December (early) I got this wild idea of getting videos from the discs that were my nephew, and his mom had wanted these videos as far back as ... quite a while and I took them off the discs and kept them, she had said she would get them but never did.. So after last summers debacle with the computer it was all lost again.. So this December I came up with the idea to try to get some of the videos and in some cases they would seem to be doubled up but weren't it just seemed like they were, I edited the videos down.. Then I got the idea to do the same with my older brother to get his daughters girls onto  a SD card, and then not to be out done I would do the same for mom..   My sister inlaws video card would be a 16GB card, so would my older brother until.. Yeah it wouldn't fit, so I went 32GB (29GB give or take) and moms would be a 32GB card as well because there would be more there as well... Now why was this done.. I told them I thought it would be a really great idea to do, the dvd ram discs were starting to deteriorate and that is true.. But something else happened.. I had a vision.. A strange vision but a vision none the less.. While mom says she won't be alive much longer I thought one day but what if I die first??  And a vision popped into my head and I got with it and got these cards done...Does that mean I knew something was about to happen??   ####

After that

So After a session of making the blog much important.. It stopped.. It's like I bragged that I thought I was getting a lot of viewers and thought wow I should see if I could make money doing the blog and because of that I lost the ability to think... So weird... But on the /...


In the early part of December I wanted to do the videos... Not.. Well here is what I was gonna do.. In the early days/years of doing the videos I was doing them to DVD discs.. And that was fine, I made a lot of discs, they are just over 4GB in length and that seemed like a lot, and it kinda sorta is.. Well dvd discs are good but they age unfortunately and they are something that you might want to last for more than 8 years, and .. THEY DON'T sadly... They can last more than 8 years but they can also not last 8 years and they can last 12 or longer years but they can also not last very long at all.. So at the start of this past year (2016) I decided that there will be no more dvd RAM  dvd discs used and the main reason is because they can go fuck all and that's it... Back when my Sister in law's sun was just about four years old she wanted the old videos and I loaded them on to the computer but for the longest time she didn't get the videos and at one point this past year I decided to "upgrade" To windows 10 because it was free and why not do that because of that.. Well three weeks later the computer took a turd fest on the computer and so I reversed and went back to windows 7 and was thankful I did, but upon doing so I lost all those videos.. So a few weeks before Christmas I was doing a video project for her, then one for my other sister in law and then a third for my mom.. Not all of these are the  same project... And they would be SD cards, the greatest reason being is that SD cards clip into the computer... Flash drives can be bumped loose and can cause issues upon doing so..  SD cards clip into their place and you eject them, while some people don't it is extremely wise to eject them..  My Sister inlaw with the videos of her sons is  a 16GB card, some of the videos are not in the best of shape but some are just lucky to get them to work at all..  The other sister inlaw has a SD card that started as 16GB but ended up having to be 32GB because of the sheer number of videos and length, with a few videos being repeated because they were doubled, because of there being videos of everyone together.. And then the one on my moms SDcard was the master of it all.. Two 32GB SD cards..  And a little extra for moms.. There was the video for Donald's wedding rehearsal and there is another with Jordans wedding... And whatever else will be made to work..  And then a quick look at everything and two videos were deleted because they were identical with the difference being that they were titled something slightly different..   All together the ones for mom are sort of the backup to the other two as a just in case but more because these are the only ones that I have.. the discs are fine but may gradually no longer play, as discs seem to go to hell over time and I'm not sure how long the SD cards will last.. Ultimately I want all the videos to be uploaded to a family YouTube site to hold onto everything.. However the reason the videos of Ian were redundant and mostly I was after what not only would play but also the more interesting bits.. Yes he will only be this age for a short time and that is why I edited the videos a little bit... With the twins it was a completely different story.. In the first three years we got to see a little bit but was nice to see what little we got to see..


After their mother died I started to record everything, and had troubles editing them down and as the proceedings went along with the adoption and about Thanksgiving of 2015 there was worry that they would be lost because of the father trying to get them.. And it was extremely hard for both my brother and his wife and everyone else.. When it got to be May and the end was extremely near and the father was about to win all I could think was well now what??  What do I do with all the videos, if he wins I doubt that I will keep the videos... I hoped we would win.. When I say we I mean my brother and his wife.. but also the community, the community that was and is my brother, his wife and everyone else ho were pulling for them to win... By labor day week end they had in fact won but had to wait some 90 days between winning and appeals court and whatever other hoops that had to be jumped through.. Some on the other side (the father) might have said well they tried to cut corners or tried to start things before they were ready.. They did everything BY THE BOOK.. Because if they wouldn't have they would have lost.. In fact they went above and beyond the book... I happen to know for a fact that is what they did.. You can't cut a corner and think that would be alright... It wouldn't be..


All the videos were set to be on disc, but when the discs weren't watched I honestly thought about stopping video work.. The videos are almost never watched on YouTube but then I thought Tabitha always complimented me and so I decided to always do videos, always send them to disc (card now) and edit them for YouTube...

They don't build them like that anymore..

If someone were to ever ask me what was my favorite Christmas present was I would have to say the one thing that remains today..  The fischer price house..

She's a little worn but.. Here is why I really like this house.. I got it for Christmas back when I was maybe in second grade... I had never seen or played with it before getting it.. I likely saw it in the Christmas catalog and imagined playing with it..   The main reason I like this house is simple.. I played with it.. My little brother played with it.. By older brothers daughters played with it, my little brothers boys have played with it and now my older brothers grand daughters are playing with it... That is one sturdy house to just get through my rough housing with it and now it is over forty years old and holding up quite nicely...

Roku fuckme

Roku streaming players are great but.. I thought I would say they are really good but you have to watch that the updates take and work fine.. Why is this important??  I recently had an update for the UI or OI.. And it seemed to not even be noticed as usual but this time like an earlier time the update didn't fully take.. How did I know??  This is fairly simple.. This past week I got an update, or a screw up of some sort.. How did I know??  This hasn't happened in a while, since like April when we upgraded to a faster internet and I got n our ISP and started ridding them regularly and finally they changed the internet settings..  We were supposed to have 5MBS and we would have that and more, until about the time school got out and then suddenly we would go from fast to as slow as there could be.. It seemed unregulated..  Well this past week there was an issue and instantly I thought our internet was going to shit, you start going through the different what could be wrong and the one thing I thought of was is the router going to shit, nut completely out of the realm of possible.. But here's the thing, we have another roku and it wasn't being interupted at all so what does that leave me with??   The router could still be the issue but I thought this likely isn't the issue...  So they have ways to check parts of the system and so I tried the first setting.. : Quality Settings Screen (Bit Rate Adjustment Screen)
Press [Home:5x] [Rewind:3x] [FF:2x]

• This sets the bit rate of video downloads to your device. If you are experiencing stutters, try changing the bit rate to the max 3.5Mbps setting.

1.     Automatic
2.     3.5 Mbps
3.     2.5 Mpbs
4.     2.0 Mpbs
5.     1.5 Mpbs
6.     1.0 Mpbs
7.     0.6 Mpbs
8.     0.3 Mpbs
9.     Enable/Disable playback debugging

What does changing the quality do??  Well it changes the amount of the internet you use, Or at least I think it does, on the Neflix setting I set it to the lowest setting, I don't have a high def tv and so I am more than happy to change from high def to low def.. I really am not up to having the GREATEST NETFLIX 4K  because we don't have that ability and it would be a waste of time for us.. So I set the setting to 3.5 which is not much.. and it went along and played alright.. Until it had to load again.. This sucked, went to the speed test and thought well the speed was down a little.. This was expected, our internet is likely going down and I expected it.. I'm happy at the 5MBS setting because We don't need the fastest, everything is standard def... So I thought try another setting.. Initially I thought a lower setting, maybe 2.5 maybe even lower...  Then I thought try another setting ... 

Debug Options:
Press [Home:5x] [FF:3x] [Rewind:2x]

• In this screen you can perform a full factory reset which clears all setting and channels from your Roku.
• Cycle channel store server which is useful to load newly installed channels.
• Cycle software update server
• Update software to latest version.
• Enable/Disable debug logging. Note: This requires Developer Mode be turned on.

What this gives you is the ability to check to make sure to check the "update software to the latest version in the software"  and all it really does is update to the latest software.. It gave me the choice to go from the latest to the latest meaning just in case it didn't  take.. Which had happened before.. And that is what it did, checked the update, installed and rebooted..  This seemed to fix the issue as it stopped the buffering issue for the night.. 

What other screens are there?? Check Installed Operation Software Version:

Press [Home:3x] [Up:2x] [Left] [Right] [Left] [Right] [Left]

• This screen shows software version and which channels are installed.

Turn On Developer Mode 
Press [Home:3x] [Up:2x] [Right] [Left] [Right] [Left] [Right]

• This is used for Roku channel developers and also to enable logging.

The developer mode is associated with a certain app, develop mode.. Making a channel work.. 

Reset Command 
Press [Home:5x] [Up:1x] [Rewind:2x] [FF:2x]

• Please be patient, it takes a while to reboot. All your Roku Channels and Setting will be preserved.

This I've never done and I think this is a new screen... 

Factory Reset Clear All Memory 

Perform a factory restore or "Hard Reset" by removing all cables except for power. Use a paper clip and hold the reset button on the back of the Roku for about 15-20 seconds. Reinstall all the cords and the Roku will ask to do a guided setup just like when it was new.

This will completely restore your Roku device to factory new state. Do this if you want to quickly clear all Roku channels and settings for troubleshooting, or if selling your Roku.

Reset to the hard rest which is done in the set up screen and can be in another work screen but isn't all together needed..   Setting your Roku to square one is the most drastic thing you could do to fix something.. More often than not it is to sell the box to make room for a new version of the Roku.. 

What is a good one to get?? 

https://www.amazon.com/Roku-Express/dp/B01LXJA5JD/ref=sr_1_3?s=electronics&ie=UTF8&qid=1480978212&sr=1-3&keywords=roku+stick

In all honesty he best one to get is whatever fits your need... The one that will support 4k which means your internet better be able to support that.. To me I am so pleased with what I have, it is the composite cord and that is the lowest video but.. Remembering cable tv over antennae is something I always compare..   There are those that swear by the highest setting but high def just never interested me.. To each his own.. 

Badge Henry